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Dear Perfect Parent,

25 Apr

Or shall I say, to the parents I see out and about staring at me, sometimes pointing,  and piercing me with their eyes while my child is having a moment.

I see your eye rolls.  I see your glares.

I see you mouth the variety of statements from the following choices of:

“she has no control over her child”
“my child never acted like that”
or my favorite
“she needs to give him a good spanking”

Yep. I see it all right along with my fellow parents of children  deemed “different” “special” or “misbehaved”.

We see everything. But what is sad is, that you don’t.

You don’t see how desperately we want our children to be on their best behavior.
You don’t see how we want them to enjoy the same activities that your children do.
You don’t see the constant appointments that turn into disappointments, the desire to do what’s best for your child but at times not knowing what that is or even means, and you don’t see the pain that YOU cause, by  your actions.

I can’t tell you how many times YOUR actions have caused me to second guess mine.
How I have sat at a table holding my child with severe anxiety in my hands and tears rolling down my face because at times I don’t know what to do or  how to keep the world from spinning around me in slow motion, to only look at you staring across the way, judging me.

I try to be strong, I need to be strong, for my child, but your judgement, your ridicule, your disgusting lack of respect for my child and situation, make a difficult situation even worse at times. When you have a child that is already labeled “different” and reacts to life on edge at times, you simply want to crawl in a hole somewhere, and there you are, ready to throw dirt on top and bury me.

Perfect parents, I’m sorry my child is keeping you from enjoying your perfect little world. Perfect teachers, I’m sorry my child doesn’t learn the way you teach. Perfect family members & friends, I’m sorry the way I’m raising my child doesn’t line up with what you all did “back in the day”.

I’m raising my child, I’m loving him, and I’m fighting for him along with a large majority of parents out there still learning how to find the right resources for their children and fight for their needs. At times, all I can do is pray because I’m trying so hard to “love like Jesus” when your actions make me want to go off on you in public and say things which Jesus would definitely not approve of. But I leave you with this-

When you see a child having a moment in public, think long and hard about how you respond. Before judging them, before putting them in categories, and deeming  my parenting “unfit” in your eyes, just stop and think- there’s a chance it couldn’t be what you think. The child having a moment could be struggling with a disorder, disability, etc.
Everything can’t be seen with the naked eye.

To those people who are supportive- I’m not talking to you. I love you. I thank you. You give the “high fives” when moments are rough.

To my fellow mamas and papas of these special children God has blessed you with, don’t lose hope. I get it. I know it’s tough and people are mean. But we can do this. God gave us these awesome children for a reason.

Until Next Time, Much Love

SPD MOM- Steph

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Motherhood

12 Nov

What can I say?

Clearly it keeps me busy because I don’t hardly post like I use to and Baby boy is almost 5 months old!
I will tell you though, it has been 5 of the most incredible moments of my life. 

When I first became a mother, I thought, “I can do this!”
but once he was here, there was a small part of me that screamed out, “I DON’T THINK I CAN DO THIS!”
However with time comes learned lessons, and I love being his mom!

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He’s the happiest most smiling baby I’ve ever known.
(AND NO I’M NOT SAYING THAT BECAUSE I’M HIS MOM, It’s the truth.)

Yes I still get up in the middle of the night, get thrown up on, and change smelly diapers as well as listening to him when he breathes, but he’s my little man. So please forgive me as I am adjusting to this period. I plan to share with you all of the wonders of motherhood in months to come. I’m still on this journey of being MrsSPJ with my new, most challenging yet rewarding job called Motherhood.

Until Next Time, 

MrsSpj

Due…..

17 May

Today is the day Baby Jones was due to enter the world….That’s right! I’m 40 weeks!
However, there is no baby…. He’s kicking, flipping, and moving all around, he just has not made his entrance into the world.

I know it’s been awhile Friends… I was hoping that I could keep you up to date with what is going on in my life, but the reality is,
with pregnancy and working full time, it’s simply tough. I found myself coming home to not writing in a blog, but a nice comfy couch screaming for me to put my feet up (and that’s what I did).
I’ve been a trooper throughout this whole pregnancy though. I’ve dealt with things like:

Sciatica (something I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy if I had one)
Carpal Tunnel (IN BOTH HANDS) OUCH!
Inability to eat Fish (it makes me feel super sick)
Nausea (really bad for the first 3 months and sometimes randomly)
Urinary Infections (Helloooo Cranberry Juice!)

Let’s not add the fact that simple things and people would get on my nerves and it wasn’t even their fault. (I was simply just pregnant :0 )

One thing I think I’ve done well is managed to be a pretty put together preggo lady. It took me awhile to get the hang of it, but once I did, you couldn’t tell me anything! If you’ve been following me on Instagram, you’ve seen some of these!

Check out some of my favorite pregnant style moments:

25 weeks and rockin red!

 

Best Friend V and I at my 1st Shower

 

Easter 2013

Easter 2013

 

35 weeks

 

Baby Shower

I’ve made an effort to keep myself still stylish and still feeling beautiful. I’m not exactly sure how I did it, but I think I made up in my mind that just because I was pregnant, that didn’t mean I had to let myself go, and not put forth any effort. I would wobble down to Target, Motherhood Maternity, and Destination Maternity, and find the cutest clothes. I also found some super comfy flats and sneakers (I wore with everything).I would style my hair cute, put on some eye shadow and lip gloss and finish it off with a smile 🙂
In the end, I think it is what has helped me embrace this journey  and handle it like a rockstar (of course with swollen feet and everything 🙂

So today, I am celebrating making it to 40 weeks, but also knowing that the baby could come at anytime. I couldn’t tell you exactly how I feel right now since my emotions are all over the place.. What I can tell you, is that it has been an interesting journey, and I can’t wait to introduce everyone to our baby boy 🙂

Until Next Time, Much Love,

Mrs. SPJ 🙂

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