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The Lazarus Story.

6 Jun

Ghost. I know.

It’s like in my mind, I have this perfect idea of writing all my thoughts down at least once a week and then time flies, and I don’t.

I know. No excuse.

How do people in the blog world keep up?

Any who, I’ve been leading a Bible Study by Jennie Allen (she’s pretty awesome), called “Proven” with a wonderful group of ladies. This study has blessed my soul in so many ways and this week , we discuss Lazarus. It is one of the classic stories repeated over and over again in the Bible, and I mean, can you blame anyone? It’s good stuff!

Man dies. Everyone is sad Man dies. Jesus is sad, man dies. He comes, he raises him from the dead. The end. Right?


I’ve heard the story a million times and I’m sure you have too. But today, there were so many snippets, so much goodness that spoke to my spirit, I wanted to share it with you and go beyond the “typical story” you’ve heard on a daily basis.

  1. When bad things happen, it’s not always about you.
    You pull yourself apart. Wondering what you did wrong, what you could have done differently, and how the circumstances could have been different, but what about thinking, “God what are you going to do with this?” John 11:4  states”The sickness is not unto death, but for the glory of god, that the son of God may be glorified through it”.  Ill tell you one thing, I much rather wonder what God is going to do with a situation then harp on the fact that it’s happening.
  2. Focus on the Light.
    We’ve all been there. Grief. Suffering. It’s not fun. But we must remember to hold on to the light, the good things, our father. “If anyone walks in the day, he does not stumble, because he sees the light of this world (John 11:9) God sees, he hears, and he’s there.
  3. Believe in who he is and what he can do.
    God is powerful and to think, he loves us! He even asked Martha if she believed in John 11:26 because the key my friend is in believing. When you allow God to show up to a situation, believe that it is handled because you know who he is, and what he can do. Wont he do it?!? I assure you (in his way and time) Yes, he will!

    Disclaimer: Don’t mistake this as me saying he will give you a million dollars or cure your sickness or illness. Don’t miss this part. I’m saying, I believe God to do everything he said he will do, even if that means not exactly what we are specifically asking for. This lady in church once was talking about two people being healed, one on earth and one in heaven.  I remember sitting in the Fresh Grounded Faith Conference thinking, I’ve never looked at it like that. God’s will is always upheld and done, even if not the way we would like or prefer. Got it? 

  4. Believe in who he is and NOT what you see.
    It’s hard, and this goodness is something I know I’ve struggled with myself. It’s so easy to think about the circumstances, what other people say, and the difficult task at hand, but I assure you God is ALWAYS in control. Not only that, what you see in front of you isn’t what God sees. I love that John 11 constantly reminds us that Lazaraus had been dead and in the tomb for four days. But sometimes when we see Death, God sees life! He hears our doubts, our concerns, but just as Jesus did, He knows who his father is and he holds onto that.

    This is where some of you need to take a deep breath and just give it to God. Whatever it is. He can’t fix it, if you won’t give it to him. Let him fix it.

  5. Allow People In!
    Sometimes we try and do everything ourselves and carry the weight alone. But God created his people to be there for each other and to comfort one another. Even Mary and Martha were comforted by the Jews on the loss of their brother.
  6. He feels our pain.
    We use to make jokes when I was younger about memorizing bible verses and John 11:35 being the easiest one to remember, but as immature as we were, we failed to look at the power in that message. Jesus wept. He felt pain. His heart went out to the loss of Lazarus and he was there in the tomb weeping with them. Make no mistake, that God feels. He cares and his heart goes out to his people when they are grieving or suffering. He isn’t absent. He’s right there. Beside us. With us. Holding our hands, wiping our tears away, and silently grieving with us.
  7. God is in the miracle happening business. Last but not least, this also means that even if a situation wasn’t handled the way you would like for it to be done, or in the time, God makes no mistakes and just as he revived Lazarus, he can revive you or your situation too. This is the main point we always get from the Lazarus story, but it’s too good not to share it again! Whatever it is, ask him! I love that Jesus simply said, “Come Forth! (John 11: 43)


So much goodness in that story. A father that love us and who always wants what is best for us. He can do it, like he did it for Lazarus.

Until Next Time, Much Love,




My Biggest Enemy

22 May

It’s not a giant.
It’s not some person I simply disagree with.
It’s not even myself.
In fact it goes even deeper than that.
My biggest enemy is…

Not this girl pictured, but the state of emotion she is currently in.
I wouldn’t say that I’m a scary person (ok maybe just a lil bit),
but I fear a lot of things.

I fear waterbugs.
I fear tornadoes.
I fear pitch darkness.
I fear losing those I love.
I fear really scary roller coasters (Hence, the Texas Giant).
I fear life.

In a sense at least. It seems that I tend to allow fear to control so much of my life, and everyday I try to work harder in getting over my fears.

For instance, I try harder to get close to waterbugs without having an anxiety attack. My hubby keeps saying, they are just bugs but somehow in my mind, I’m convinced they are these large monsters out to eat me alive.

Tornadoes, I’m learning are a part of living in AR. I’ve managed to not go crazy when I hear those sirens go off.
(Something completely new to me when I moved here)

I sleep in the darkness. The darkness is still. There is an akward peace to find there.

I’m also learning to find the tiny glimpses of light that peak through the darkness.

Losing those you love is a part of life. I know it’s something you can’t fear, and knowing that there is a really cool guy upstairs taking care of us all, kind of makes it easier 🙂

Scary rollercoasters? Well at least I have actually been on a few of them. I don’t know if I’ve necessarily conquered this fear, but it’s something in life I don’t HAVE to do. And thats OK.

Life. I don’t necessarily fear all of life, but sometimes I fear so much it seems like I am afraid of everything. I have got to do better about this. I know that God wouldn’t give me anything that I couldn’t handle, but the thought of conquering some things makes me quiver.

I read a really great article on fear once, that talked about how Fear is good and  feeling fear is okay: 9.Fear from the Healing Eagle

However,  Fear cannot control us.
It can’t control all the decisions we make, why we choose to do things or not.
It can’t have us constantly looking over our backs or avoiding things that may be the best thing to ever happen to us.

I challenge you to conquer your fears. To meet them head on, and to not let them consume you. It’s something I’m determined to not let take over my life.

Today, I stand firm, and my thoughts of fear can best be addressed in this simple quote:

“I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain.”

Frank Herbert
Until Next Time Much Love,  Mrs. SPJ 🙂

So Strategic

19 Apr

I swear,  this has been my word this year in reference to the most high.
I mean just think about it.

1. The world is saddened at the loss of “The Voice”, Whitney Houston, in February 2012.  Millions of viewers  tuned in to watch, but I believe some of them got more than they bargained for. They didn’t just have a home going for Whitney,  everyone who watched (including myself), went to church. God was ever-present and I believe touching people all over the place. I cried, I laughed, and I truly remember the words of Tyler Perry. You can hear his words below:

2. Let’s look at Jeremy Lin.
He has been the New York Knick’s main attraction lately.He received no athletic scholarships from high school, he was undrafted in college, and was assigned to the NBA Development League 3 times. He was known as a player who played sparingly and then out of nowhere he becomes a star player since he led the losing Knicks to a seven-game winning streak and scored at least 20 points in six games straight. Then he starts sharing his faith with the world and crediting God for his success.

3. Then there’s Tim Tebow.  While his mom was pregnant with him, she suffered a life-threatening infection and experienced a severe placental abruption. The doctors expected her to have a stillbirth and recommended abortion, but she decided against it, and Tim was born.  He grew up homeschooled and rooted in faith. He has been noted as one of the greatest college football quarterbacks of all time, a 2007 Heisman Trophy winner, a national champion , and a current Denver Broncos first round draft pick. During college Tebow would always wear biblical verses in his eye paint. During a championship game in 2009, he wore John 3:16 on his face under his eye. When that occurred, that verse was searched in Google for the next 24 hours 90 million times. Every time he would put a verse under his eye, the same occurred.  He even started a trend that people have called “Tebowing” (I call it praying), and it’s been defined as when you start praying even when everyone else around you is doing something different. Although I thought it strange at first, I said whatever it takes to get folks to pray and closer to God, works for me.

4. God is also strategic in placing people at the right time. Many of you who read my blog, I’m sure remember the “tire incident” where a man just came out of nowhere and fixed my tire 🙂 If that isn’t strategy I don’t know what is!

5. Then there’s today. I got in  to work this morning, and I thought hmm what should my status be today? In my spirit, I sensed “Leave him”. I thought, okay those words are definitely not for me, so what does that mean? Then the thought or feeling came to me again. I thought, okay I don’t understand this, I don’t know why I’m getting the urge to post this , but okay I’m going to do it.

Leave him. Sometimes things come in your spirit, and you don’t know why they do, but I had the strong urge to tell someone to leave him. You know it’s not right, so now you’ve just gotta let it go. There, I shared it.

A few minutes passed and I thought, well maybe its just something I should have said, then I received a pop-up message from a girl I know, and this was our conversation:

CCM: Wow! I needed that status right now. I was just praying about it and your status just popped up!

MRSSPJ: It just came in my spirit. God works like that

CCM: That was incredible and a fast answer to a prayer:)

MRSSPJ: I was sitting here and it was like a thought, a whisper, “Leave him” and I’m like okay that’s not for me. It came right as I was updating my status and I was like what should i put this morning… and I thought, okay I know this isn’t for me, and it came again, so I shared it…Thought it was a bit different, but decided to share it anyways. Well I hope whatever it is, it all works out. God knows you are too beautiful and sweet to have to deal with someone’s mess.

CCM:Well thank you for that! Sometimes I need to actually see the ”sign” right in front of me.

MRSSPJ: I understand. Sometimes we all need that 🙂

So my status was for a reason. It touched someone. Someone needed to hear that. I even had someone send me a “thanks for this” message as well.  It just goes to show you, that not only is God strategic, but that he uses people to ultimately share his love, get his message out, and save people from this crazy world. He will use you as a vessel to touch others and to spread his love.  He may be trying to tell you or show you something, but are you hearing him? Are you listening to him? It’s something to think about. So be open to being used by him, and pay close attention to what he’s doing. He has been moving and shaking things for years, we just have to open our eyes and take notice of it.

Be blessed!

Until Next Time, Much Love, Mrs. SPJ 🙂

The Great Barista

5 Jan

Many of you are addicted to them.
You stand in long lines to wait for your favorite cup of whatever it is you all get from Starbucks.If you are from my hometown, you seriously crave Port City Java. Some of you can’t live without  your favorite coffee drinks nor the baristas that prepare them.
In fact, many of you will wait in line and SWEAR that your day will not be complete without it! It’s that much of a must have… Well today, I want to tell you about something bigger and even better.

Let me introduce you to the Great Barista.

This person makes amazing concoctions that contain a lil bit of sweet sometimes bitter but always worth the wait. Sometimes they can give it to you in an instance and other times you have to wait for a great concoction from the Great Barista.  Sometimes you try a concoction from them, and you may not like it but it may have been what you needed at that specific time, or even better yet what you asked for. Sometimes what you ask for doesn’t always turn up to be the best thing for ya. Sometimes you have to let certain concoctions go because they are no longer healthy for you. And that’s okay. You have to put your trust in the Great Barista. I gurantee you he knows what he’s doing.

Are you at the point in your life where you are waiting on a concoction from the Great Barista? Well if so there are a few things you must know:

1. Concoctions aren’t made over night. They take TIME. It’s not on your time either…  It’s the time the Great Barista thinks it takes.

2. Be very specific what you ask for. Or shall I say be very careful what you ask for. You just may recieve.

3. Be prepared for the sweet and bitter taste of life. They both add flavor to what is being created.

4. Understand when a concoction you thought you had your name on the side, is given to someone else. It doesn’t mean you don’t have the same concoction coming, it just means yours isn’t quite ready yet.

5. Try something new! It’s scary, I know. But it might be the best tasting thing you’ve ever had.

6. Don’t be disappointed if the first taste isn’t the greatest. Sometimes it takes a lil while to warm up to something new.

7. Be thankful for every concoction that comes your way. Trust and believe it is for a reason.

8.  Never give up on the great Barista. He’s the greatest for a reason.

I don’t know what made me want to talk about the Great Barista today. I think it is simply because well, he is so GREAT.  Not to mention, my friend who happens to be a co worker wrote on her blog (It’s Always Something) today something really phenomenal that reminds us all that every thing happens for a reason, even if it doesn’t seem to turn out a certain way, and THAT’S OKAY.  We just have to get to the point were we understand that. Also, I hear so many people saying , “Steph look at you, happily married, full time job, home owner, you are really blessed. ” Well that may be it, but that’s not just it. Please believe me, I’ve had my fair share of concoctions some great, some not so good, some new, some old, and I got to the point where I realized I have to let the Great Barista do his thing, trust him completely, and know he would never give me something I can’t handle 😉

I guess the moral of this blog is…
hold on, keep the faith, and know that your time is coming…
Your just going through the brewing period, and we all are constantly going through that period where things are being created and developed just for us. It’s what I like to call the “Brewing of a Blessing”.

Believe me, the great Barista has your back 🙂

Until Next Time, Mrs. SPJ 🙂

Psa. 27:14 Wait for the Lord; Be strong, and let your heart take courage; Yes, wait for the Lord.

Man is born broken. He lives by mending. The grace of God is glue.

20 Oct

Man is born broken. He lives by mending. The grace of God is glue.
EUGENE O’NEILL, The Great God Brown

Something New.. Something Unknown

14 Oct

That’s right.. Venturing out.. Starting something new. I’ve always liked to write…so why not share it with the world? Especially with this new venture in life I’m starting…..

Have you ever heard of a faith walk?

That’s what I’m taking. I recently married the love of my life, My J, on September 18th, 2010.

 I have grown up in Wilmington, NC my whole life. Everyone knows me, I know everyone (ha ha!) and due to being married I have completely relocated to about 15 hours away where I know hardly anyone, I don’t have a job, and feel as if I’ve been uprooted. However, I fell in love ironically, and I thank God for this love, and although at times I find myself missing the life I’ve been comfortable with, and seeing the people I’ve known for all my life, I know that this is part of not me growing as a person, but also growing in my walk with Christ. I’ve always known of his presence in my life, and have always deemed him the head of my life, however now I will truly have that test of faith and have to walk out on water with God. My husband asks me all the time, if I trust him, and I do. But this isn’t about trusting him that things will be okay, that I will meet people, etc… This is about trusting God.

So here I am taking that faith walk. Learning to walk on water, discovering new things, doing new things. I think this blog will be helpful in not only sharing my thoughts and feelings on life, but on sharing my journey. I’m going to have to be in the uncomfortable place for awhile but I will sit here and follow directions:

“Be still and know that I am God!” Psalm 46:10


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