1 of a Kind Bday :)

10 Sep

Last week, I had the chance to celebrate an AWESOME Birthday, but this is not just any kind of birthday….

You see, last week I celebrated one year of Zumba!

However, it is so much more than that… For me, I’m celebrating one year of smiles, one year of fitness, and one year of finally kicking “depression” in the butt.

That’s right. Before I started Zumba, as crazy as it may seem,
I was depressed.

It all started with the very first blog post, Something New..Something Unknown, where I was just in an awkward place after moving to Arkansas.
I didn’t post hardly at all because I spent my time, sitting on the couch in between frequent tears and calls to family and friends back home. SERIOUSLY.

I would get these horrible feelings in the pit of my stomach that I just couldn’t get rid of. I would cry, and sometimes I didn’t even know why. People would call my phone and they said I would sound even depressed on my voicemail. My husband encouraged me to talk to someone, but I didn’t, because as most people battling with depression, I felt that I could do it all by myself.

Some of you who have read this blog from the beginning, remember my I’m Angry post, where I was just really missing home. So many times, I suffered in silence. I lied to those closest to me, because I didn’t want them to know how bad it really was, and I didn’t want people giving me their pity. I went back and forth throughout the year I think trying to “convince” myself I was happy, when I simply wasnt. I remember asking myself, “What Have I Done” and I couldn’t even answer it myself. I thought I would never make it, but as most people know, God ALWAYS makes a way.

It’s been a journey but slowly but surely, I’ve come out of the really dark place that I was in. I believe not only Zumba help me do that, but surrounding myself with very positive people. All of a sudden, I was not only working on my health, but I had people supporting and encouraging me all along the way. I continuously prayed for an Answer, and God gave it to me through Zumba.

I met the Zumba Instructor (who I call FRIEND), Julie, who encouraged me to join the gym. I remember thinking, “what in the world am I getting myself into?” I started going about 3 times a week. I met Emily, who introduced me to everyone she knew at Zumba. Before I knew it, It became part of my routine, and I really didn’t even have time to think about missing home. I was too busy having fun, and meeting some awesome people. A year has passed and I can’t believe it myself!

This story is very personal for me, however I’m sharing it, because someone else may be suffering with relocation depression or simply depression, and I want you to know that there is light at the end of the tunnel. That one day, it WILL get better, even when you think it wont. You WILL smile again, things WILL work out, and that God ALWAYS has the answer. For me, I just needed to get myself out of the house and doing things for a change. I needed to truly be a part of something, and surround myself with positive people, not simply the people from back home that reminded me of all that I was missing back home. I needed to be willing to do something different, and embrace the change instead of finding a million things wrong with it.

I’m so thankful, I’m so encouraged, and though I do miss home from time to time, I’m growing more and more each day. I’m thankful to all of those who have helped me overcome and It is something I’m still continuously working on because I don’t want to get back to that negative place.  So do what you need to if you are in a rut, and don’t let the Devil tell you what you can and CANNOT DO. Also, I probably should have talked to someone back then instead of trying to figure it all out myself. I encourage you to talk to someone if you really need to, and to just remember that God is ALWAYS there for you.

I just wanted to share my hope with you, and celebrate this one of a kind birthday 🙂

Until Next Time, Much Love,

Mrs. SPJ 🙂

P.S. Check out some pictures of us celebrating one year 🙂

 

Me & My Stef

Happy 1 Year

Glow Fun!

 

Girls celebrating 1 Year

 

Emily & I

 

Me & Julie (Zumba Instructor)

 

 

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