Jealous of My Self

13 Aug

What Have I got myself into?

I was going through old pictures yesterday, and I found a photo of myself with longer hair, a two piece bikini on, and a beaming smile.

Right then and there, I looked at the photo and found myself jealous of myself.

Yep, that’s right.

Green eyed with my lip poked out jealous.

Here was the photo that caused it all:


I can feel my toes touching me through the screen and I long to be this size again.

However, this was taken almost 5 years ago… and life does happen, but I kind of feel like I let myself go. Funny thing is, I am so much more healthier now than I was back then. It goes to show you that just because you are smaller does NOT mean that you are healthier.

While I have decided to not be truly obssessed with the scale or beat myself up about not being where I want to be, I am making a conscious effort to do better.

It’s kind of hard when you are obsessed with cheese dip like I am. I realize it’s all about having things in moderation and making smart choices.

I have a lot of personal goals up my sleeve this year that I have not shared with anyone, and I’m striving everyday to work towards those goals.

I will tell you more about some of the challenges I am working towards later..

Also, I’ve decided to not be jealous anymore. The way I see it, if I want it back, I have to work hard to get there, and thats okay.

I’m up for the challenge and all that life has to bring.

I know that I’m going to have to start doing some different things to get the results I want, and that’s scary but I’m always up for a new adventure! That’s how this blog started in the first place.

To my old self, I say,

“Bring it On!”
You may be smaller than me, but not healthier, and God knows I hadn’t accomplished as much then as I have now!

Until Next Time, Much Love,

Mrs. SPJ 🙂




One Response to “Jealous of My Self”

  1. Tiffany August 14, 2012 at 7:17 am #

    Not jealous of yourself???? LOLOLOLOL…I totally understand though. Nice picture. 🙂


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