Hectic Work, Heavy Heart, Losing Sam

15 Mar

It’s been awhile hasn’t it folks?
I apologize but it’s been pretty hectic on my end.
For one, I had a big site visit at my job that I was getting ready for.
Secondly, I got sick on Sunday (From what I still don’t know?)
Then,I got some terrible news on Sunday night.

See what I mean? A lot going on.

When I was a teenager, I use to work at Chuck E. Cheese. First job and it was a great one!
I got to make some money, make people smile, and interact with kids. I had a manager at the time, who had two beautiful little girls who would come in and have a good time. I became very fond of one of those little girls, and she even came to my house once, and we made these cute little jewelry boxes. Well their mom stopped working there, and I kinda lost touch with the girls, but I always thought about them, especially the oldest. Well I’ve always wondered about them and was so excited to finally find Sam earlier this year on FB! We started talking, she told me she was now 20 years old, engaged to be married, and a new mom! She was looking forward to going back to school and eventually hopefully working in a day care. We talked about how much fun we had when she was younger, and how great it was that we finally caught up with one another. Well Sunday night, someone contacted me and let me know that she was accidentally shot while someone was cleaning a gun.

I gasped, and then immediately I was heartbroken. I went back and looked at our recent conversations, where she said “I love and miss u”, and the last thing, “I gotta go, ttyl.”

I couldn’t sleep Sunday night. I woke up in the middle of the night, with tears in my eyes, and I told my husband, “It just bothers me. It really really bothers me”.  I don’t know what it is. I don’t know if it’s because I feel as if I just found her and her time was cut short. I don’t know if it’s because I simply think it’s unfair. I don’t know what it is. But it bothers me. Tremendously. I don’t know if it’s because I knew the potential Sam had, because I knew she had so many dreams, she loved being a mom to her 4 month old little girl, or if I just feel as if we’ve been deprived. Either way, It’s still a bit unreal to me. Crazy thing is, we weren’t super close, but I cared for her, and had high hopes for her. I don’t know. I just know I’m sure going to miss our chats.

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R.I.P. Samantha 😦

So the work load has been hectic and the heart has been heavy. Tomorrow I’m getting off half a day and I promise to share with you all the wonderful things that I’ve discovered and the great things going on in my life. I’m sure you would love to know. For now, today is the day the beautiful Samantha Reynolds lay to rest. For those who knew her, she was such a doll. So fun, So full of life. I can still hear her laughter and see her giddy smile she had as a child. I remember we would go off in our own little world and sne’d want it to be just us two, although I thought her sister was just as precious!

For now, we will always cherish the memories and the moments.

Until Next Time Mrs. Spj

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