Having a Moment.. Back to the Place…

18 Apr

Whew! I’m better. The post I made Saturday was out of Anger and Frustration. Sometimes we have those moments though. Moments where are insides are SCREAMING and we just want to throw something!! (Hence, Steel Magnolias). Well I couldn’t throw anything so all I could do was throw my pen out on paper. So that’s what I did. And it felt GREAT!

I realize that I need to claim this newness in my life, and figure out a way to embrace it, which I have yet to do. I don’t know how to at times! I don’t know how to grasp on to this newness and let go of what seems everything that made me who I am. A place that is so deeply rooted in my soul. My pastor and brother, Rev. William Johnson told me earlier, that the people we are, are connected to the places, people, life that feeds us. Which makes sense. If a place has helped define you for so long, what do you do, when that is taken away from you?

Apparently, you have to adjust. And that is something Im’ not that great at doing. “ADJUSTING”. While Change is good, I must be honest with myself, and say I don’t like CHANGE. I can accept it but in bits and pieces, and at times this feels like it is all too much at once. I don’t know how to deal ya know. But I gotta start somewhere, so because of that well I need to commit to actively doing something. So Ill start with a few things here:

1. Find some type of aerobic class.
2. Fall in love with photography again.
3. Maybe take a class of some sort? Or teach one.
4. Blog more.
5. Discover Jesus More (but this is always ongoing)
6. Maybe sing more? IDK..

Just tryin to get back to the place, where there was ALWAYS a smile on my face..

Until Next time,

Mrs. SPJ 🙂

One Response to “Having a Moment.. Back to the Place…”

  1. ashten April 18, 2011 at 4:36 pm #

    Nobody likes change. But it happens. It will get better, just give it time. P.S. I going to start taking a yoga class when I move in 5 days. AND singing helps the soul so definitely do that. 🙂


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